The world owed you more than the impulse of self destruction

But if every moment you lived was an obstruction

To the peace you deserved, I hope you’ve found it

You were the cold dew on the mountaintop

When the sun was just opening her eyes in the morning

The imperceptible whisper of every critter whose steps were too small to make a sound

I hope you know that a part of your life is mine now

Vibrant and regal as a rosy maple moth on the first day of summer

I hope to bear it with honor, and when I become one with the soil

I’ll tell you. I wish you had stayed

Three long years since my last

Peering into the bathroom mirror moment at a bar

Shakily gazing into the slow lapse of time

Heat radiating

From the round glow in my cheeks

This morning I had to conjure up your names from a deep place

They used to prickle through my veins with every rapid heartbeat

These days I think my blood moves too fast

Gently and painstakingly eroding a part of me I’ve never met

The last thing I wrote was a song to seduce a man

Who already loved me

kawaiilluminatii:

when people bring up your past

I’m back bitches